hmmm...well i forgot I had this blog spot! I have been really stressed lately!! Sometimes I dont even feel like this is my life. Smooth....that is what I want my lifve to be like...smoooooth. In just a couple months it has been tossed upside down and inside out!! I do breathing exercises in hopes that helps. So far...NO...lol!!! In 3 months or so my Mom faces open heart surgery. That thought makes me numb. Half the time I want to just break down and cry..she is my Mom. The woman I look up to. The woman who I dont want to be with out. A couple weeks ago she had a heart attack. They put in a stint and all is good for now. They found some kind of bubble in her heart that can burst. That scares the crud out of me. I have also become her whipping post. If she is feeling crabby I am the one who feels her rath. What do I do...breath deep and make sure I only cry in the shower!